As I was driving in my jeep, sitting at a stop light, I saw the leaves flying in the sky as if they were talking to me. Telling me to keep my free spirit going. Keep my head up and my heart open. The sky was purple and yellow, so colorful. I sat at the stop light daydreaming; remembering the feeling of excitement, hope. Life was telling me I had something to look forward to. Feeling the wind and watching the leaves swirl around was a breath of fresh air. Taking the time to notice the beauty that life has to offer saves me. Day by day it saves me. As each day goes on, the crazy pattern of life yet the excitement of not knowing whats going to happen next is my contradicting love for life. There are opportunities to learn everywhere you look. I’m realizing life is about breathing in the moment. Truly listening to the present, balancing that craving to know whats ahead and that regret of what’s behind. Just listen. Allow your thoughts to fade away, as you look into the present moment of today.
I’m a girl, that hopes to make a difference in the world. By learning to love myself and loving others unconditionally. You are beautiful now and forever is something I truly believe. True inner beauty never fades.
Everything we want and everything we need is and always will be free. Go on a walk, hike, bike ride, anything outside; you’ll find that the true healing is from Mother Nature. Where there is peace everywhere, the beautiful flower growing from the ground; the wind, rain, everything is against that little flower, but it still stands? I put a question mark on that because I want you to think how and why? It is meant to be beautiful; it stands tall because that is what Mother Nature intended it to be. But why? It grows in dirt. Odds are against it, yet it still stands and continues to grow. We have so much to learn from the Earth, why look to human beings; society to set the examples for us? You have one life to live, please, don’t waste it allowing your thoughts to tell you things you are not. We all are beautiful, interesting, different. Love it. Nature intended you to be that way, love the beauty in it. I think it’s wonderful to try to better ourselves, but to think we’re not worthy of being beautiful and confident without material things is truly sad to me. Any time you start to question who you are, just think, “There is no one else like me. I am one of a kind.” Even identical twins have different personalities. That is our truest gift; the freedom of our thoughts and the freedom to be who we want to be. Embrace yourself. Don’t waste your life trying to please others, love yourself and others will be drawn to that. I look at it as a puppy, if you can love a puppy, feed, water and love it unconditionally just because it’s alive, then why can’t I do the same for myself? After all, love is the key to true success.
~I am dedicating this to you. When you feel as if there is nothing left; Look within.
A part of my first chapter in my book, I hope it inspires you
I’m always in the same routine. School, work, school, work. NOTHING else. Sometimes I think of running away to somewhere exotic, Switzerland or New Zealand. Am I running away from my routine or is it my state of mind? Being responsible is something I’ve always known. When I was in Venice Beach, seeing the hobos have no worries, fears, or responsibilities was something I was quite envious of. They wake up with no expectations of anything and just enjoy day by day. Smiling at everyone, enjoying the people and music around them. What was it that was so good about their life, that wasn’t in mine? Their state of mind. They’ve seen the worse they possibly could have, they know their life can only get better. Today has been a continuous cycle of pattern, but is it me just saying the same bad thoughts over and over? I’m usually quite the optimistic person, but I am one for adventure and love surprises in life. Right now, my life is just the opposite. I know this is just temporary, I’m working my heart out to save money to have enough money to move. I’m doing this to myself? Happiness is a state of mind NOT a location. There is beauty everywhere, I just need to find it. Today’s continuous pattern has helped me realize, life isn’t always a field of flowers. But how fortunate am I, that I have the freedom to create my own future? That is exactly what I am doing. Waking up and creating my own future. Each day, each routine, is a stepping stone to my dreams. Isn’t it amazing that with each negative thought, we have the ability to learn? Life is beautiful that way. I will continue my routine – taking a breath of fresh air – knowing I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.